{"id":53579,"date":"2025-07-02T05:24:13","date_gmt":"2025-07-02T05:24:13","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ikimisli.tr\/?p=53579"},"modified":"2025-07-02T05:24:13","modified_gmt":"2025-07-02T05:24:13","slug":"hayatimin-tum-gunleri-artik-dolu-dolu-bana-lazim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ikimisli.tr\/index.php\/2025\/07\/02\/hayatimin-tum-gunleri-artik-dolu-dolu-bana-lazim\/","title":{"rendered":"‘Hayat\u0131m\u0131n t\u00fcm g\u00fcnleri art\u0131k dolu dolu bana laz\u0131m’"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u2018Evde kal\u0131p piyano \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmak i\u00e7in hasta numaras\u0131 yapard\u0131m\u2019<\/span><\/b><\/p>\n

– Piyanoya 3.5 ya\u015f\u0131nda ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fs\u0131n\u0131z evvel biraz o y\u0131llara gidebilir miyiz? <\/p>\n

San\u0131r\u0131m ben \u00e7ok istekli bir \u00e7ocukmu\u015fum ki annem o kadar erken ya\u015fta ba\u015flatm\u0131\u015f piyanoya\u2026 4-5 ya\u015f konser foto\u011fraflar\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce ben de \u015fa\u015f\u0131r\u0131yorum asl\u0131nda ne kadar k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckm\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm diye lakin nas\u0131l da memnunum hepsinde, g\u00fcl\u00fcc\u00fckler sa\u00e7\u0131yorum etrafa seyirciyi selamlarken.<\/p>\n

Her konsere yeni bir elbise ve yeni rugan ayakkab\u0131lar, \u00e7ok k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ya\u015fta renkli ve heyecanl\u0131 fakat bir o kadar da \u00f6nemli ve disiplinli bir hayat. Her konserin farkl\u0131 bir hat\u0131ras\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

Bir r\u00f6portaj\u0131mda \u201cBir de bebeklerle oynayabilsem\u201d diye keder yanm\u0131\u015f\u0131m lakin ge\u00e7enlerde gazete ar\u015fivimi d\u00fczenlerken g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, herhalde aksi bir g\u00fcn\u00fcme denk gelmi\u015fim. Asl\u0131nda biraz aksiydim de, okula giderken de bazen s\u00f6ylenirdim\u2026<\/p>\n

\u2018Anneme hayrand\u0131m\u2019<\/strong><\/p>\n

Hep konutta kal\u0131p piyano \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmak i\u00e7in hasta numaras\u0131 bile yapard\u0131m, annem de \u00e7abucak inan\u0131rd\u0131. Bu ortada annem esasen \u00e7ok uzun y\u0131llar, san\u0131r\u0131m 17 y\u0131l, o devrin en yeterli piyanistlerini yeti\u015ftiren Ferdi Statzer\u2019in \u00f6\u011frencisi olmu\u015f, hasebiyle piyano derslerime daima benimle birlikte girer ve hocas\u0131n\u0131n verdi\u011fi talimatlar do\u011frultusunda da konutta beni \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Sonra da piyanoya kendi ge\u00e7er, beni k\u0131skand\u0131racak derecede s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 kesimler \u00e7alard\u0131. Chopin Et\u00fctler, Polonezler, Kon\u00e7ertolar\u2026 Ben de onlar\u0131 \u00e7alaca\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcnleri hayal ederek bir kenarda hayranl\u0131kla onu izlerdim. G\u00fcnlerimiz daima m\u00fczikle dopdolu ge\u00e7erdi… <\/p>\n

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\u2018\u00c7ok k\u0131ymetli bir f\u0131rsat yakalad\u0131m\u2019<\/strong>
– Salzburg\u2019daki Mozarteum M\u00fczik \u00dcniversitesi\u2019nin \u201cHarika \u00c7ocuklar\u201d s\u0131n\u0131f\u0131na tam burslu kabul edilmi\u015fsiniz. Salzburg ve akabinde Londra size neler katt\u0131? <\/p>\n

Salzburg Mozarteum\u2019a tam burslu olarak kabul edildi\u011fimde asl\u0131nda ailemden farkl\u0131 ya\u015famak i\u00e7in \u00e7ok k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckt\u00fcm ancak mecburen tek ba\u015f\u0131ma da olsa gitmek zorundayd\u0131m, o b\u00fcy\u00fck f\u0131rsat\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131ramazd\u0131m. <\/p>\n

Salzburg d\u00fcnyan\u0131n en ho\u015f kentlerinden biri ve Mozarteum da hala en k\u0131ymetli m\u00fczik okullar\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda geliyor lakin ben daima h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fcyd\u00fcm, ailemsiz g\u00fcya daima eksiktim. Annem, babam ve karde\u015fimden ba\u015fka ge\u00e7en o y\u0131llarda \u00e7ok ac\u0131 \u00e7ektim, \u00e7ok g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 d\u00f6kt\u00fcm ancak tekrar de \u00e7ok \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, s\u00fcratli \u00f6\u011frenebildi\u011fim i\u00e7in k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ya\u015fta hayli geni\u015f bir repertuar\u0131m oldu… <\/p>\n

\u2018B\u00fcy\u00fck piyanistlerin hocas\u0131 BEN\u0130 se\u00e7ti\u2019<\/strong><\/p>\n

Mozarteum\u2019dan 8 y\u0131lda, hem konser piyanistli\u011fi hem de m\u00fczik pedagojisi alanlar\u0131nda \u00e7ift anadal yaparak mezun oldum. Mezun oldu\u011fum yaz \u0130spanya\u2019daki bir master class\u2019\u0131na kat\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m b\u00fcy\u00fck piyanistlerin hocas\u0131 Maria Curcio, beni kendi ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kent olan Londra\u2019ya yerle\u015fmeye ikna etti. <\/p>\n

O s\u0131ralarda bildi\u011fim, tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir s\u00fcr\u00fc piyanist arkada\u015f\u0131m onunla \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmak i\u00e7in beklemedeydi, \u015fu an ismini vermek istemedi\u011fim kimi T\u00fcrk piyanistler de dahil olmak \u00fczere\u2026 <\/p>\n

Onlar\u0131n ortas\u0131ndan yaln\u0131zca beni se\u00e7mesi, bana Salzburg\u2019daki \u00fcniversite hayat\u0131mda ailemsiz ge\u00e7irdi\u011fim o uzun ve h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fc y\u0131llar\u0131n ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 unutturdu, k\u0131sa m\u00fcddet i\u00e7inde b\u00fcy\u00fck bir memnunlukla Salzburg\u2019dan Londra\u2019ya ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131m. Evvel onun \u00f6\u011frencisi akabinde asistan\u0131 oldum. Hem \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fim hem de \u00f6\u011fretti\u011fim \u00e7ok verimli bir s\u00fcre\u00e7ti Londra\u2019da ge\u00e7en 10 y\u0131l\u0131m. <\/p>\n

\u2018GS mar\u015f\u0131\u2019n\u0131n (\u00e7)al\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 yok\u2019 <\/strong><\/p>\n

– Biraz da alb\u00fcmlerinizden kelam edermisiniz?<\/p>\n

Bir\u00e7ok alb\u00fcm\u00fcm var fakat \u015fu an hala en reva\u00e7ta olan 1998 y\u0131l\u0131nda besteledi\u011fim Galatasaray Mar\u015f\u0131 alb\u00fcm\u00fc. Dijital ortamda dinlenme rekorlar\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131yor. Nat\u00fcrel ne de olsa \u00f6zg\u00fcn bir kesim, (\u00e7)al\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 yok, kal\u0131b\u0131 yok, tek ve e\u015fsiz. Y\u0131llar uzunlu\u011fu halk\u0131n \u00e7ok sevip benimsedi\u011fi bir kesim oldu\u2026 <\/p>\n

\u2018Devlet Sanat\u00e7\u0131s\u0131\u2019 olmak gurur verici<\/span><\/b><\/p>\n

– Devlet Sanatkar\u0131 unvan\u0131na sahip olmak nas\u0131l bir his? <\/p>\n

Elbette onur duydu\u011fum bir unvan, bir paye\u2026 1998 y\u0131l\u0131nda Ankara\u2019da se\u00e7kin bir \u015furan\u0131n karar\u0131yla \u00f6nerilen 3 bireyden biri olmak ve Say\u0131n Cumhurba\u015fkan\u0131m\u0131z merhum S\u00fcleyman Demirel taraf\u0131ndan da bu unvana uygun g\u00f6r\u00fclmek beni \u00e7ok keyifli etmi\u015fti. O devir Londra\u2019da ya\u015f\u0131yordum ve akademik mesle\u011fimi \u015fimdi profes\u00f6rl\u00fck mertebesine ta\u015f\u0131mam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, m\u00fcnasebetiyle \u201cDevlet Sanat\u00e7\u0131s\u0131\u201d unvan\u0131 benim birinci unvan\u0131md\u0131 fakat sonrakiler de \u00e7ok bedelli al\u0131\u015f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f zira \u00e7ok emek verdim.<\/p>\n

\u2018Kendimi \u00e7ok ihmal ettim\u2019<\/strong><\/span><\/b><\/p>\n

– Yeni \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131n\u0131z, yeni projeleriniz neler? <\/p>\n

Londra\u2019da Maria Curcio \u00fczere \u00e7ok de\u011ferli bir hocan\u0131n asistanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m y\u0131llarda d\u00fcnyan\u0131n d\u00f6rt bir yan\u0131ndan gelen gen\u00e7lerin yeti\u015fmesine katk\u0131da bulundum. Maria\u2019yla birlikte yar\u0131\u015flara haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z gen\u00e7 piyanistler en k\u0131ymetli yar\u0131\u015flarda m\u00fckafatlar kazand\u0131lar. Bilgi payla\u015f\u0131l\u0131nca k\u0131ymetlidir biliyorum ancak ben uzun y\u0131llar \u00e7ok a\u011f\u0131r ders verdikten sonra asl\u0131nda kendimi \u00e7ok da ihmal etti\u011fimi fark ettim. Daha repertuar\u0131ma almak istedi\u011fim bir s\u00fcr\u00fc eser var, bekleyen kay\u0131tlar\u0131m ve kendi yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m mod\u00fcller var. Bunlar\u0131n hepsi i\u00e7in de vakit laz\u0131m, asl\u0131nda haftan\u0131n t\u00fcm g\u00fcnleri art\u0131k dolu dolu bana laz\u0131m diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm ve birka\u00e7 ay evvel radikal bir kararla \u00fcniversiteden ayr\u0131ld\u0131m\u2026<\/p>\n

Meslekta\u015flar\u0131na esprili bir yan\u0131t<\/span><\/b><\/p>\n

– \u00c7ok sevdi\u011finiz akademisyenli\u011fe neden veda ettiniz?<\/p>\n

1988-2004 y\u0131llar\u0131 ortas\u0131nda \u0130zmir Devlet Senfoni Orkestras\u0131\u2019n\u0131n da solist sanat\u00e7\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131m. Profes\u00f6rl\u00fck s\u00fcrecimde konserlere orta vermek zorundayd\u0131m zira ders verdi\u011fim \u00fcniversitede \u00f6ncelikle \u201cOrff Schulwerk Temel M\u00fczik ve Hareket E\u011fitimi\u201d dersimin t\u00fcm d\u00fcnyadaki seminerlerine kat\u0131larak kendimi o alanda da yeni tutmak ve \u2018\u2019M\u00fczik E\u011fitimi\u2019\u2019 alan\u0131ndaki \u00f6b\u00fcr toplu derslerimi haz\u0131rlamak i\u00e7in \u00f6nemli bir vakte gereksinimim vard\u0131. Son vakitlerde bana daima \u201cNerelerdeydin, konserlere de hayli bir orta vermi\u015fsin\u2026\u201d diyen meslekta\u015flar\u0131ma da buradan esprili bir mesaj\u0131m olsun\u2026 Marmara \u00dcniversitesi Atat\u00fcrk E\u011fitim Fak\u00fcltesindeydim ve bence en az konser piyanistli\u011fi kadar \u00f6nemli olan \u201cnitelikli m\u00fczik \u00f6\u011fretmenleri\u201d yeti\u015ftirmekle me\u015fguld\u00fcm. Do\u00e7entli\u011fim sonras\u0131nda haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m makaleler, yurtd\u0131\u015f\u0131 yay\u0131n ve seminerlerim ile Profes\u00f6rl\u00fc\u011fe y\u00fckseltildim. Bizim mevzuatta belirli bir say\u0131da \u00f6\u011frenci mezun etmek bu y\u00fckseltmeler i\u00e7in maalesef k\u00e2fi olam\u0131yor, ba\u015fka kriterleri de yerine getirmek i\u00e7in \u00e7ok \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmak gerekiyor. Lakin ben art\u0131k yine\/yeniden sizlerle m\u00fczik yapabilmek i\u00e7in kendimi yeti\u015ftirmeye d\u00f6nd\u00fcm. <\/p>\n

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\u20187 Mart hayat\u0131m\u0131n en makus g\u00fcn\u00fc\u2019<\/span><\/b><\/p>\n

– 7 Mart\u2019ta baban\u0131z, \u00e7ok k\u0131ymetli gazeteci \u00c7etin Eme\u00e7 i\u00e7in her y\u0131l oldu\u011fu \u00fczere bir anma program\u0131 d\u00fczenlenecek\u2026 Siz de o programda yer alacaks\u0131n\u0131z\u2026<\/p>\n

Neler hissediyorsunuz? <\/p>\n

7 Mart benim hayat\u0131m\u0131n en mak\u00fbs g\u00fcn\u00fc. Babam\u0131n vuruldu\u011fu haberini Londra\u2019dayken ald\u0131m fakat hayatta olup olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmeden, \u00f6\u011frenemeden u\u00e7a\u011fa atlay\u0131p geldim. Ak\u015fam saatiydi, Suadiye\u2019deki konutumuza vard\u0131m ve orada beni kar\u015f\u0131layan a\u011f\u0131r kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce sabah Londra\u2019dayken soramad\u0131\u011f\u0131m o s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 sorunun kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da alm\u0131\u015f oldum. Babam\u0131 anma merasimlerinde yan\u0131m\u0131zda olan herkese daima s\u0131k\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131ya sar\u0131lmak, kucaklamak istiyorum. Bilhassa o g\u00fcn \u015fefkate ve sevilmeye o kadar gereksinimim var ki\u2026 Ba\u015fta Say\u0131n Kad\u0131k\u00f6y Belediye Ba\u015fkan\u0131 Mesut K\u00f6seda\u011f\u0131 olmak \u00fczere, Lider Dan\u0131\u015fman\u0131 Say\u0131n Can Ersal\u2019a, K\u00fclt\u00fcr M\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fc Say\u0131n \u00d6m\u00fcr Kurt\u2019a ve tertipte eme\u011fi ge\u00e7en herkese i\u00e7ten te\u015fekk\u00fcrlerimi sunar\u0131m. Ayr\u0131yeten babam\u0131z \u00c7etin Eme\u00e7\u2019in ortam\u0131zdan ayr\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcnden bug\u00fcne dek her vakit yan\u0131m\u0131zda olan, onun gazetecilik unsurlar\u0131na y\u00fcrekten ba\u011fl\u0131 aile dostumuz bedelli gazeteci Say\u0131n U\u011fur D\u00fcndar\u2019a da g\u00f6n\u00fclden te\u015fekk\u00fcr etmek isterim. <\/p>\n

\u2018Babama l\u00e2y\u0131k olabilmek i\u00e7in \u00e7ok \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m\u2019<\/strong><\/p>\n

Biraz da baban\u0131z\u0131 kaybetmenin \u00fczerinizde b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 tesirlerden, O\u2019nun size katt\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u0131ymetlerden bahseder misiniz? Eminim m\u00fczik hayat\u0131n\u0131zda b\u00fcy\u00fck dayana\u011f\u0131 var\u2026
Mozarteum\u2019dan mezun olup Maria Curcio ile \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmak i\u00e7in g\u00fcle oynaya Londra\u2019ya ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan 1 y\u0131l sonra bir sabah babam\u0131n suikast haberiyle hayat\u0131m\u0131n o en berbat g\u00fcn\u00fcne uyand\u0131m. Detaylara girmeyece\u011fim ancak birinci vakitler \u00e7ok zorland\u0131m. <\/p>\n

Piyanist olma sevdam y\u00fcz\u00fcnden ba\u015fka ge\u00e7irdi\u011fimiz ve babac\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan yoksun oldu\u011fum onlarca y\u0131la \u00e7ok ac\u0131d\u0131m. Bildi\u011fim, \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fim her \u015fey de\u011fersizle\u015fti g\u00fcya, hatta beni rahats\u0131z etti. Uzunca bir vakit \u201cke\u015fke\u201dler ile ya\u015fad\u0131m daima fakat sonra ona son telefon konu\u015fmam\u0131zda verdi\u011fim bir kelam akl\u0131ma geldi.
\u201cS\u00f6yle bakal\u0131m bug\u00fcn ka\u00e7 saat \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131n?\u201d diye sorard\u0131 daima babam beni arad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ve ben, ne tuhaf ki o son konu\u015fmada \u201csaat y\u00fcz\u00fcnden de\u011fil, ben daima sana lay\u0131k olabilmek i\u00e7in \u00e7ok \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum\u201d demi\u015ftim. Bu kelam bir yemindi adeta ve ben o kelam\u0131 epey y\u0131l hi\u00e7 akl\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131karmad\u0131m. <\/p>\n

Konserler ba\u015fl\u0131yor<\/span><\/b><\/p>\n

– \u00d6n\u00fcm\u00fczdeki g\u00fcnlerde konser program\u0131n\u0131z nas\u0131l?<\/p>\n

\u00d6n\u00fcm\u00fczdeki haftalarda CKM, AKM, Ko\u00e7 Okullar\u0131 ve Yelde\u011firmeni Sanat\u2019ta resitallerim ve konserlerim olacak. 26 Mart\u2019ta CKM\u2019de \u201cAnne ve Bebek S\u0131hhati Vakf\u0131\u201d faydas\u0131na bedelli Opera Sanatkar\u0131m\u0131z Tenor Sedat Can \u00d6ztoprak ile sahnede olaca\u011f\u0131z ve Schubert\u2019in o m\u00fckemmel yap\u0131t\u0131 \u201cWinterreise\u201dyi seslendirece\u011fiz. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Piyanistlikle akademisyenli\u011fi bir ortada y\u00fcr\u00fct\u00fcp profes\u00f6rl\u00fck s\u00fcrecinde konserlerine orta vermek zorunda kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 Mehve\u015f Eme\u00e7\u2026 \u201cBence en az konser piyanistli\u011fi kadar \u00f6nemli olan \u2018nitelikli m\u00fczik \u00f6\u011fretmenleri\u2019 yeti\u015ftirmekle me\u015fguld\u00fcm. Bu y\u0131l radikal bir kararla \u00fcniversiteden ayr\u0131ld\u0131m\u201d diyor. Zira m\u00fczik ismine kendisi i\u00e7in de yapmas\u0131 gerekenler oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":53580,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[26],"tags":[89,6172,479,3183,702],"class_list":["post-53579","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-kultur-sanat","tag-gun","tag-hep","tag-konser","tag-muzik","tag-yas"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ikimisli.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/53579","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ikimisli.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ikimisli.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ikimisli.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ikimisli.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=53579"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/ikimisli.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/53579\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":53583,"href":"https:\/\/ikimisli.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/53579\/revisions\/53583"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ikimisli.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/53580"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ikimisli.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=53579"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ikimisli.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=53579"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ikimisli.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=53579"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}